Monthly Archives: October 2016

Apologize

I know I have said words that wounded a young soul. When I err with my speech, it always makes me question myself. “Should I continue in this career pathway?” I ask for forgiveness, and I ask that the student allow himself to heal. Hurt feelings are not erased overnight or simply with heartfelt words. They take time. I am a work in progress who still needs refinement from the LORD my God. My students and I are humans who make mistakes and need forgiveness and mercy.

RLT

Be Careful, My Dears

We will be completing partner work next week in the library. I chose the partners for my students. One of my more talkative students was persistent with the noise level during work time. I announced partnerships. As the Future Ladykiller prepared to leave, he asked if he could not be partnered with Watchful Wally. “We talk a lot, Mrs. Johnson.” Feigning surprise and barely restraining a smile, or was it just a baring of teeth with my eyes crinkling in the corners?

“Future Ladykiller, this will be an oppportunity for you two to focus.” He left.

Watchful Wally was so pleased to be paired with his buddy. Why such a moniker? He watches me during work time if I happen to sit at my desk or walk about. I told him today, “If you are doing what you are supposed to be doing, then you never have to worry about where I am or who I am watching.” He responded, “Yes, ma’am.”

RLT

Be Vulnerable 

As you know, I have struggled with my reading lab class. It has been to the point that I prepared/fretted about it nearly as much as my other new prep of social studies. My new principal and I talked, and I shared my struggles with her. It felt good to be open and release my stress so that she knew what was going on. She now knew that I paddle like mad underneath but show no ripples on the surface. She was caring, and I felt heard. That more than anything lifted my spirits. Staying a little late or spending thirty to forty minutes per weekend day to get ready is not nearly as daunting as it once seemed. The LORD blessed me with this woman as my leader. I am glad to be working with her and for her.

RLT